You have the Answer. Just get quiet enough to hear it. ~Pat Obuchowski

Happy Easter everyone! I cannot believe it is that point in the year already…how time flies when life gets complicated. I know it has been ages since I have written anything on here- sorry; I am amazed that anyone is still reading my ramblings.

In all honest I haven’t felt the want to write anything for a while. When I have considered writing I thought anything I might have written might have come across as a little heavy hearted/ depressing and I certainly don’t want to impose that nonsense on anyone! Not that I have my lip down, it’s but then tends to be when I feel the urge to write something.

I’m not going to go all OTT and dramatic and insist that the last few months have been awful. There have been some low moments but equally there have been some extremely good moments. However I chose to look at it, in summary it hasn’t been easy. The last few months seems to have been a blur of hospital appointments, long days and longer nights, each day bringing a slightly different challenge to my door. Throughout this time I have kept telling myself ‘everything happens for a reason’ and ‘just keep going it will be over soon’. Both of these statements I still believe to be true, but today I feel like there are just one too many things in my life I need (/want) a resolution too or maybe just a sense that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t get me wrong I also think that if something is worth having it is worth fighting for, there are just a few too many battles going on at the moment, in all aspects of my life, all at the same time. May be if I am really really lucky it will all come good at the same time????

Do you ever wish you just had a little hint of what the future holds? I don’t want to spoil the surprise but just a little indication would I be nice? Something to give you a little comfort so you know it will be all worth while, something to help you push through those little moments that prove to be a little harder to cope with than the rest? Will all the doctor’s appointments turn out to be worth it? Will I find ‘the one’?… Then again what’s to say it would provide any comfort…unfortunately we don’t always get what we wish for…even when we wish really hard.

I do not plan to ramble on for much longer, if all the above seems like rubbish ramblings please do not blame me, blame the drugs (no they are not illegal and are of the ‘safe’ prescription kind). If that’s not enough of an excuse I am also watching ‘Adele at the Albert Hall’ on BBC Iplayer… she is enough to mess with anyone’s mind. I can be full of smiles, then I listen to her album ‘21’ and suddenly I am all weepy and the smile has gone..bizarrely in spite of knowing how I react to that album I do listen to it a lot…that’s got to be some sort of crazy self-harming?!?!

Anyway back enough of that…hope everyone enjoys the last bit of the bank holiday. I will try write something again soon(ish)


Quotes for today;

Your heart knows your song, but you have to be willing to listen to the words.  ~Sue Rock

It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.  ~Agnes Repplier

It doesn’t hurt to be optimistic.  You can always cry later.  ~Lucimar Santos de Lima

The naïve follow their hearts.  The wise lead with their hearts.  ~Author Unknown

Do what you must,
And your friends will adjust.
~Robert Brault

Hope is patience with the lamp lit.  ~Tertullian


A mother understands what a child does not say. ~Author Unknown

Because it’s Mothers days I thought it was worth posting a related quote or two but I also to share my plans for my own Mummy.

As most of us do I have my little ups and downs with my Mummy but of late she has been truely brilliant and been by my side through some difficult days. With this in mind this year I wanted to do something extra special…so since she is from Devon what could be more fitting then a homemade (gluten free) Cream Tea (also known as a Devonshire tea)..

Here are my little efforts:

Only a short post as I am expecting Mum at any moment and in the mean time I need to keep the cat away from the cakes..he seems to think it is all for him, atleast he is sat up straight at the table..

I hope all the mum’s out there have had a lovely day and been spoilt rotten.


A Little mother’s day related quote or two:

Making the decision to have a child is momentous.  It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.  ~Elizabeth Stone

God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers.  ~Jewish Proverb

A mum’s hug lasts long after she lets go.  ~Author Unknown

A man’s work is from sun to sun, but a mother’s work is never done.  ~Author Unknown

Most mothers are instinctive philosophers.  ~Harriet Beecher Stowe

More questions…

Its seems this week is all about the questions.. since I have been tagged by my good friend  I thought I would answer these too. However I am not going to renominate people otherwise we will go around in circles forever and never blog about anything else – sorry.

So here we go…

1) If you could be any kind of cake, what would it be and why?

a ginger cake simply because it taste soooo nice and everyone love it right?

2) Name 5 CDs that you would take to a desert island (which had electricity) with you.

3 CD’s that a great friend made me, Adele 21 and Luther Vandross greatest hits.

3) What muppet best describes you?

– Abby Cadabby (see above)

4) Favourite type of flower?


5) Favourite cheese?

– Chedder and chive..yummy but smelly and fattening

6) If you had to, would you pluck a duck (not a euphamism) or pickle a frog?

– Pickle a frog, anything with wings scare me.

7) What is the best type of biscuit?

  (Gluten free) Rich Tea, simple but amazing with a cup of tea!

8) If you had one day to live, what would be the most important thing to you to do?

Enjoy every hour, min and second of it.

9) Your celebrity look-a-like?

Courtney Cox (so I am told, I do not agree)

10) Where would you like to get married?

– In Mexico on the beach

11) What’s worse – being kicked in the nuts or giving birth?

– I could make some depressing statement about how I may never know but I will go with giving birth. I am guessing child birth as men just ask like babies when it comes to pain.

All done now


ABC Award

Thank you to Will of Heart for nominating me for ABC Award, since this is one of my favorite blogs to read I am more than happy to follow the rules of this one (especially since it is fun too).

All the ABC award requires you to do is to think words that fits me using….

A – Appreciative

B – Boring 🙂

C – Caring

D – Dark haired

E – Emotional

F – Fair

G – Girly

H –  Hard working

I – Imaginative

J – Joyful

K – Karma

L – Loving

M – Motivated

N – Nice

O – Open hearted

P – Pretty ( I wish)

Q – Quiet (hmm)

R – Right (always)

S – Short

T – Tired

U – Unwell

V – Very annoying

W – Woman

X – X-rayed

Y – Yorkshire

Z – Zen

There doesn’t seem to be a rule about how many people I need to nominate  to keep the award going so I have selected a couple:

1. Please dont slow me down

2. The Silent Soul

3. These things and me

4. How not to date Emma

5. Have a dream

Happy weekend everyone! xx

Questions questions questions…

The Silent Soul tagged me to answer some questions today…and after reading her answers I thought it would be fun to continue the chain..I just hope I can come up with eleven people.

1. You must post the rules.
2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and then create eleven new questions to ask the people you’ve tagged.
3. Tag eleven people and link to them on your post.
4. Let them know you’ve tagged them!

Firstly here are the answers to the questions I was set;

1. If you could have been born at any other time in history when would it have been?

– The 1950’s, I love the clothing styles 🙂

2. What’s your ultimate cheery-up thing to do when you’re down?

– Put some music on and dance around my flat

3. If you’re life was turned into a movie who would you like to see playing the part of you?

– Courtney Cox

4. If you could go back in your history and be any age again, which age would you chose and why?

– 21, because I had so much fun that year and was very happy!

5. If your entire DVD collection was confiscated apart from one DVD which one would you chose to keep?

– Dirty Dancing

6. What 3 things would you take if you were banished to a desert island for the rest of your life?

– iPhone, teddy bear, my bed

7. What’s the best book you’ve read?

– To Kill a Mocking Bird

8. If you were eaten by a shark would you expect someone to hunt the shark down?

– No!

9. If a genie offered you the choice of a million pounds or a guaranteed healthy and happy life, which would you take?

Heathy and happy life- easy question.

10. What’s you’re favourite pudding?

– Fruit crumble (apple and blackberry) with custard

11. If you could have any animal in the world as a pet (assuming you had as much space as you needed to keep it) what would you choose?

– My cat, I wouldn’t change him for anything

Now here are my questions for my chosen 11;

1. If you had a day off on your own what is the first thing you would want to do?

2. If you could go back in time or forward which would you chose and why?

3. What is your favorite smell/ scent?

4. To date what has been your favorite age?

5. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

6. Have you ever been in love?

7. If you had to sum yourself up in 3 words what words would you pick?

8. What do you think is the best thing about you?

9. Tea or coffee? Which is the better drink?

10. Where is the best place you have been on holiday?

11. Which is your favorite animal at the zoo, and why?

And finally I would like to tag…

1. Please dont slow me down

2. The Silent Soul (sorry to tag you back)

3. These things and me

4. How not to date Emma

5. Will of Heart

6. Have a dream

7. Mortal hearts with immortal souls

8. My rays of light

9. Snowing fragments

10. Just Smile

11. My story to you

Enjoy! It is pretty fun answering the questions 🙂


Fear makes the wolf bigger than he is. ~ German Proverb


Some of us hide it so deep inside we can temporarily pretend it’s even there, while others can lay in bed at night letting it spin around in our heads…but why are we all so afraid to just get on and live our lives? After all we only get one chance…

– fearful to jump in and start something new
– afraid to tell someone what we really think / feel
– afraid to say good bye to something we know is no longer making us happy
– fearful to take the next steps and move on with our life
– afraid to listen to the truth in our hearts
– afraid to listen to what the doctors / bank manager / best friend might have to say
– unable to face the truth???

Short post I know, but there’s still a few quotes to finish it off, hopefully to put a better spin on everything….


Don’t fear, just live right. ~Neal A. Maxwell

Who is more foolish, the child afraid of the dark or the man afraid of the light? ~Maurice Freehill

There are several good protections against temptation, but the surest is cowardice. ~Mark Twain

Anything I’ve ever done that ultimately was worthwhile… initially scared me to death. ~Betty Bender

“Love Will Find a Way”

I came across this lovely song today and loved the words so much I thought I would share them;


In a perfect world
One we’ve never known
We would never need to face the world alone

They can have the world
We’ll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smart
But some where in my secret heart

I know
Love will find a way
Any where we go
I’m home
If you are there beside me

Like dark turning into day
Some how we’ll come through
Now that I’ve found you
Love will find a way

I was so afraid
Now I realize
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies

There’s a perfect world
Shining in your eyes

And if only they could feel it too
The happiness I feel with you

They’d know
Love will find a way
Any where we go
we’re home
If we are there together

Like dark turning into day
Some how we’ll come through
Now that I’ve found you
Love will find a way

I know love will find a way”

Ok, so I admit I found it while watching; “The Lion King 2: Simba’s Pride” but I enjoyed the film and loved the soundtrack so who cares.

Happy Sunday


Be happy. It’s one way of being wise. ~Colette

It’s Friday and it is time to be happy…

“Well,” said Pooh, “what I like best,” and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn’t know what it was called. ~A.A. Milne

“The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up. ~Mark Twain”

“Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want. ~Margaret Young”

Happy Friday xxx

The ride with you was worth the fall my friend….???


Happy valentines day everyone!

As all singletons can understand its not the most fun day in the calendar. I am not sure whether this year is more bearable because I am hiding away in my flat (still recovering from my surgery…I’m not that upset by valentines day) or worse because I can’t go out with the girls for an “anti- valentines” get-together.

Therefore to all of the singletons here is my valentines card to you……


While I am left feeling a little unloved on this day, I can’t help but question..given the choice would I be in a relationship? Only last night I sat with a good friend who has recently had his head messed up by a girl, and a number of couples have opted to split since the start of 2012? Is it easier to be alone? Remember what it’s like when a relationship ends does it make it worth trying…is the ride really worth the fall?

Every relationship has the good and the bad, but does it make it all worth while? If a relationship does end I think you should consider yourself lucky if you can look back on the memories with a smile on your face. Often if this is the case, it’s because the end was amicable to both parties or at least you had an understanding as to why it happened. When it’s painful / long winded the end can over shadow the good times, leaving a lasting bitter taste in your mouth. If that’s what happens I think that’s the saddest part of all. Shouldn’t we all be able to look back on relationships with fond memories, after all you did love each other once upon a time..of course this is only applicable to “decent” people, if the ex is a complete “idiot” (please feel free to insert your own description relevant to your ex) then it would be great to have a “delete all” options on the memory bank.

I consider myself lucky that in the main I can look back on past relationships, love and valentines days with a smile on my face and a warmth in my heart.
So am I ready to give it another go…?? Is it easier to be alone? I honestly believe the easiest option is to be alone, but easy is often boring. Having thought about it, I might just be ready (well nearly)….fingers crossed for the future and what ever it may hold. Maybe next valentines day won’t be so lonely.

Finally I hope you all have a great valentines day and if you are lucky enough to have a Valentine to celebrate with, maybe a little gift too, remember its the thought that counts, whether it’s a DVD and flowers from the garage or a beautiful candle lit dinner, at least you have each other ❤❤

To complete today post I thought I would take some quotes on love from the amazingly talented late Whitney Houston and some of her great songs:


“A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us”

“The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all ”

“And if somebody loves you
Won’t they always love you
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care, for me”

“I’d rather be alone than unhappy”

“If I lose my fame and fortune
And I’m homeless on the street
And I’m sleeping in Grand Central Station
It’s okay if you’re sleeping with me”

“You’re a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine”

“I’ve been in love and lost my senses,
Spinning through the town.
Sooner or later the fever ends,
And I wind up feeling down.
I need a man who’ll take a chance,
On a love that burns hot enough to last.
So when the night falls,
My lonely heart calls.”

A Guesty Blog Regarding Tea

Because I haven’t been feeling myself and my blog is looking rather neglected I asked the amazing blogger; if he would write something for me…to my surprise he agreed. It’s a different tone to my normal style but I think he and his writing is amazing and always raises a smile or ten….so over to make sure you also check out his excellent blog!

The lovely and amazing A Loving Heart is the Truest Wisdom has invited me to write a little guest blog on her bloggy pages, for which I am very grateful for the opportunity. No-one else would be stupid enough to actually let this happen but for some reason she has felt it would be a good move.
I considered writing a blog along the lines as to what her lovely readers would be used to and love. However, my brilliance in that field is rather limited and it would only look like her demented cousin had attacked her PC whilst she was out of the house whilst hyper on sugar and cake. I will ensure that my guest blogging contains no profanities (swearing isn’t cool kids) so as not to upset the readers and keep this lady’s reputation relatively intact. I will try my best. I hope you all enjoy and I hope Sarah can forgive me for the wordy madness that is about to infect her normally lovely and thoughtful pages.

As I sit here slurping on a delectable cup of milky brown loveliness (tea for the un-initiated) in a “Timmy” cup from South Park (yes I am exceptionally grown up, but it’s an exceptional cup) I am thinking about tea and it’s healing properties.
I’m not talking about the ingredients specifically having healing powers, although that would be spectacular if they did. Super Tea they could call it. Or Magic Tea, or Marvellous Tea, or Miracle Tea, or Bamboolingly Barmy Tea …….. oh wait I’ve taken it too far.
Anyway, tea I find can have a very relaxing effect, and the more relaxed you are then the better you feel. If I feel stressed out, I get a good old fat cup (a clean one obviously, but quite important to mention just in case. You don’t want a tea floating with dirty goblets of disgustingness now do you.) If I’m feeling unwell, I head straight for the tea fairy (imagine if she existed!) and it helps me feel better, along with the paracetamol or whatever medicinal wonderment you have been prescribed too obviously, but tea is always the main factor I find.
Tea is a wonder, perhaps the 14th (I’ve lost count as to what number we’re actually supposed to be on) wonder of the world. It should be number one though, bugger the old buildings it’s tea that’s important!
So, tea is one of the most important parts of my life (and if it isn’t in yours then you need to sort yourself out immediately). I am actually obsessed with coffee too. At work I only drink coffee. At home I only drink tea. It’s a weird combo. Most people drink coffee to wake themselves up in a morning right? Nope not me. Tea (well two cups) first thing in the morning before I go to work otherwise I simply would not function. People at work would notice the difference in me if I turned up without a double cup session pre-work. I’d look a mess. Like I’d lived rough for a week (this is how I look in general in a morning until the tea kicks in).
Of course, it is important to give tea a companion. We don’t want it to get lonely now do we. It’d be cruel. Almost tea torture. Poor tea. So, tea is often coupled with our good friend Mr Biscuit, and why not too he’s a very good chuckle. On many an occasion I’ve been supping the delights of cup of tea (YORKSHIRE tea by the way, there is no other type it’s all garbage apart from that) when I can plucked a grouping of crumbly magnificence from a packet and devoured them like a pig from a trough. And then gone back for some more. If there is a packet of biscuits in front of me, it is almost impossible for me to avoid eating at the very least half the packet. Whilst some might see that as a fault and rather unhealthy, I myself see it as extremely healthy and one of my 5 a day. Possibly 4 of my 5 a day on occasions. Probably should eat more fruit. But only after the biscuits.

Anyway, I feel I have rambled on quite enough for one session. I also need to get myself a tea as I am literally dribbling at the prospect now after writing that. Should probably get a towel for the dribble as well. I leave you with a thank you to the lovely lady who let me write on her blog as she is an exceptional person. Make sure you all keep reading her stuff. It’s all very wise and gets you thinking about matters past and present, happy and sad memories, but memories and experiences that make up our lives so each and every one is important to remember. Witha one or two exceptions. Those ones can go to hell.
So, take it easy, enjoy yourselves, and A Loving Heart is the Truest Wisdom will return in the next post with something worth reading rather than this drivel (Sarah there is no editing allowed in this by the way, it all stays in!!)

P.s. I am aware I have a slight tendancy to overuse brackets in my sentences. Sorry about that but it’s tough, that’s just my (ridiculous) style. 🙂